Tough

I can remember one of the worst times that I have had in my life. I was in the hospital. I don't remember how I got there. I know that I was really sick though. I remember I was in and out of it. I remember waking up and throwing up in a trash can. My boyfriend was there at the time. I wasn't embarrassed or anything. He had seen a lot worse from me I'm sure. I fell back asleep. When I woke back up my dad was by my side. His head was in his hands. I kind of just sat there and I could feel my heart breaking, because I knew what I was doing to myself all along. For the first time though i saw what I was doing to the people most important to me. I will never forget that night. I'll never forget the voicemail from my brother telling me that he loved me. I have hated myself for what i put people through. Anyway I was just thinking about that...